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Can We Talk Now?-Redwall Log

**I got the Abbot on....**
   
Who:

Benar-Abbot of Redwall

Xander-Leader of Mossflower Defenders and Owner of Redthorn Tavern

a spoofed novice

LOG:

RW Abbey: Kitchen Yard
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Boasting a decent view of the Abbey's orchards and gardens, this
space is mostly a work area, displaying well trampled grass and the
occasonal bare spot.  An especaily worn spot is the path that leads
between the kitchen gardens and the vineyards.
 
From one end of the kitchen yard to the other, the space is nearly
filled by the tremendous gnarled trunk of an ancient apple tree,
roots and branches and boughs trimmed off and piled alongside for
later use.  A deep groove of mud-churned sod and torn grass leads
back to the orchard, from where the fallen tree must have come.
     
There are also a variety of workshops around the edge of the yard,
the wood-shop, the cooper for making barrels. The small smithy
where the abbey's tools are made, the potters kiln and the brewery.
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Xander worked on a bowl, still, that he was making, a design of swirls and clouds and carefully laid it aside, there was also a mug he was, well trying to figure out and decided to give up on its design as he sighed.
   
Benar walks over to where the badger is "Hello Xander, I heard of what happen, I also remember you and I was supposed to talk but you left before I got here.I am sorry I was not here right away I had to tend to some things in the orchards, a tree branch needed trimmed back that had gotten damaged in a storm, lucky the tree is ok."   

Xander frowns and doesn't look at the abbot right away and then finally does slowly turn to face him "I'm..sorry Abbot Benar. I...I left..I was upset and it was likely better I left at the time than stay or..well..may of ended up punching someone"   

Benar nods as he listens "Well, we clearly do not want you punching anyone, may I sit?"   

Xander nods "Again..I should of waited you did say it was not a request after all."He grows quiet and speaks "C..Can I talk now?"   

Benar nods as he sits down "If you wish to speak I am always around to listen."   

Xander sighs, "I..I know..first sorry for upsetting anyone, sorry for my grumpiness lately as I should of focused it elsewhere or maybe no where..I..I don't know. So many things were happening and I failed at, at stopping them...but I am leader of the Mossflower Defenders, we are to defend and yet I failed at that when...when Hawkeye..died and i failed at stopping that cat, who by the way leads a new Blackrose group..she might have a couple slaves but I don't know for certain.I killed around 12 or so of her..beasts and her mate or think it was her mate...after...they...."He takes a deep breath and exhales.   

Benar listens as the badger speaks" Some things can not be stopped .And I heard of Kalypso was it?..Her group is whom killed the dibbun.How you and a couple others hunted down the group and there was a fight that ended with injuries and the group being again lost."
   
Xander frowns "Yeah...no clue where and they may of left Mossflower, a couple of the Defenders..an otter and a squirrel, couldn't find her, Silverwing found tracks east but then lost them and there been no sights of them since. I have decided to not go hunting them down, it..it is pointless too and she has maybe..a pawfull now with her, maybe she will run into others that will finish her off or..so I hope." He wipes away tears as he speaks " but I still..failed to make sure Hawkeye and Northstar were..were safe, I am lucky no one else was hurt..or...or worse."   

Benar nods "Then for now do not dweel on it, leave the worry to others.You may want to defend and protect but you cant do so for everyone, everywhere, 24/7..it will only cause you stress and stress can lead to many things..health issues..anger issues..confusion and even pain, it makes matters worse." He will let him speak if he wants to.   

Xander frowns "Yeah...I..I know and my group has..little"He frowns, and takes a deep breath "The ones I have can still..patrol, when needed for..well anything and Patch has beasts even to see what is going around and what does or..doesn't need attention. I know Camp Willow keeps an eye on things near the river and Ferravale with stuff near there,...and I found or..guess they found me..the Guosim are back in the area, they were south of here and I kind of..sort of..took care of a wolverine for them, out of luck it ambushed me and I killed it...then fell in a hole ment for it, that after being lost in woods, and yeah it was hot and sort of forgot water...they helped me out and got me here, I also didn't let the healers tend to my..eye and well.."He sighs "I..have to keep the patch...."
   
Benar shakes his head "It is always wise to have water in this summer heat, this summer has been very annoying and I will be happy when its Autumn, I am glad you got help Xander but that could of ended worse and I don't wish more bad news. I also hope your letting the healers check your eye now, its always important to let healers do their job..even if you rather not go to the infirm when they tell you too, its better too do so" He gets some clay and looks to the badger"Did you still wish to talk? Sometimes a hobby can lessen stress.."    

Xander frowns quietly "I...know"He did bake a lot of cookies,muffins, a cake and a cobbler at the base, he has not done much with the pottery wheel, just the bowl and..that is a mug right? Or maybe its for butter now, or..creamer? He then just suddenly starts crying and decides to just let it out for a good few moments not caring who his company is, this may be a good thing as he hasn't cried since the day Oz died and even that day he forced himself to stop."Why?..Why...They..died..w..why I should of been there too..."He sniffs and frowns" A..And when I..I am..t..t..there for..Hawkeye..and..and my daughter its...its too..late..life hates me"And more open sobbing,tears, and shivering as he FINALLY gets all this bottled up feelings of sadness,anger,confusion,stress, out."And..And that..fight with the Blackrose....and maybe even falling into that...hole after being in the sun too long..messed up memories..didn't help just mak..making it..w...w..worse.."Yeah nothing like not remembering an uncle , and a child,and a friend died, all that news in one day! And this stuff, who knows what else happen in the past what 4-5 seasons and he has forgotten ALL OF IT! So there is stress of that too.   

Benar starts to work on some sort of vase and stops, he wipes off his paws on a rag and lays a paw on Xander's arm, "I am here..Xander..it is ok to weep, keeping feelings bottled up is not good."   

Xander jumps slightly and lets himself sob for a little while before he does manage to calm down finally"I..I need to tell others..s...sorry,,how acted when...when I was ...upset" He frowns, how long has he been here, is that the lunch bell?   

Benar nods "For now...relax and calm yourself..sit here a while."A passing novice from the nearby gardens clears their throat "Father Abbot it's lunch time..." The Abbot nods and smiles "Please bring me and Xander's lunch out here"The novice nods and does so.   

Xander sniffs, ok lunch here is ok, there is a small clear table and a couple benches "Oh by the way the new Log-A-Log wanted to speak to you think just to say hi.."   

Benar nods "That will be nice to see how they are doing, no one has heard much since the siege with Ormaz...for now lunch and we can work on some pottery together after lunch"

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I play:
Oz-  Badger-young adult-Wanderer