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Mother Krisha

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Stress Is Not Good...So Rest-Redwall Log

WHOM:

Krisha- Badgermother at Redwall Abbey

Udat-Visiting Newt and Apothecary

Gorefang-Visitor to Redwall

Xander-Mate to Krisha and Leader of Mossflower Defenders

Benar-Abbot of Redwall

A couple spoofed healers and couple dibbuns, maybe a couple novices

When: Starts in Great Hall and ends up in the infirm.

Log:

Krisha looks tried, worn out, but is still alert and right now taking a small break...well trying to as she has a couple dibbuns on her lap asleep

Udat steps his way into the Hall, giving it a brief, albeit an appreciative, look about before venturing almost straight-away towards the fire to get some warmth. Though, there's a brief glance at the tired badger seated not too far away.He takes a moment, then gives a light shrug before resuming his trek for a bit of warmth, mindful to keep quiet so he doesn't wake the sleeping beasts up.

Krisha watches the newt and speaks "Hello....I have not seen you around before..were you one of the visitors from couple days ago?"

Udat straightens up, turning a bit to better hear the remark. "No. Just a wandering apothecary. I think...once or twice I used to come by here to help the infirmary, but...not of late."

Krisha nods, she doesn't seem too worried but does keep an eye on him"Well all good beasts can stay in the abbey when needed."

Udat relaxes himself down a bit as he warms up, taking some time to adjust his robes as he does so. "So I've heard. I wouldn't say I'm 'good' but not 'bad' either. I simply do my job regardless of who the customer is." He smiles faintly. "Neutral, I suppose."

Krisha nods as she yawns and a faint frown, she needs sleep it seems as she been up helping a lot, maybe too much, the past week."Ok...you may of known a..think was Brother Leon...he was Master Healer, now we have a couple beasts that help as main healers, no for sure Master Healer now though"

Udat frowns some. "An opening? That's unfortunate... hopefully someone competent finds their way into the spot, at least. A pity when there's no one beast to really keep the place running effectively...

Krisha says, "We have healers...Angela and Gorvenalus are very good and act as like a Master healer, though Governalus is also our recorder..." She rubs her forehead, ok headache, and the two dibbuns wake up as she smiles a little "The others are with Sister Ginny"A frown but the two do slip off to what is left of class."

Udat watches the two as they scurry off. "Well, I've always offered what I can. Apothecaries tend to be more...medicinally inclined than as practitioners of care, but...if there's a need, then I'm never against it."

Krisha smiles a little "Anyone is welcome to...to help at the abbey."She sighs, clearly tried "Sorry it's been a long week and we just had..had a funeral couple days ago"

Udat ahs. "Death... unfortunate. I trust it was, at the very least, painless? That is possibly the...most desirable of outcomes..." He furrows his brow. "I should also apologize... Death, for me, is...difficult to treat as tragedy." He shrugs. "Dealing with it frequently does that, I suppose."

Krisha nods"He...died in his sleep, he was in a very deep coma he....never woke from"A couple tears fall now and she is too tried to wipe them away.

Udat glances down for a moment before moving away from the fire and towards the mourning badger. "Again, a shame..." He pulls out a flask, offering it over. "Nothing potent... just a bit warming, really. Something to, at the very least, drink. Think it's..." He opens it and gives a quick smell, "Elderberry..."

Krisha shakes her head, maybe just being careful as she is tried "I..I am fine and still have to do couple things"

Udat gives a nod, taking a drink himself before putting the flask away. "Services were at least good? Sound turnout and decent words spoken?"

Krisha nods as she slowly stands, frowns and sits back down...yeah she might wanna wait a few moments as she nods "It was...most went back to their homes, some are still here...others of course live here"

"Sounds like...whoever passed had a loyal following. That's rare these days..." Udat finally opts to take a seat nearby, settling in comfortably. "Think the last time I had to bury someone, it was just me."

Krisha says, "They....were the Badgermother. I am Badgermother now"

Udat ohs. "Your predecessor..." He takes a moment to study the badger for a few moments more. "My condolences."

Krisha frowns, she nods slowly "He was...loved by many and had been Badgermother for a very long time"

Udat pulls out his flask to take another sip and just lets silence linger for a few good moments. "Well, I know you aren't...keen on drinking, but all the same." He raises his flask in a toast. "To absent friends, as they say." He takes another sip. "May they rest well while those of us still here hold down the ship."

Gorefang appears from the library, limping up the stairs with a book and a few bits a paper. He looks grouchy and starts heading towards the fire though the sight of the badger makes him hesitate on the way.

Krisha looks over and nods, she looks to the doorway..what else was she supposed to do, who knows she been doing too much lately..comfort not just a crying dibbun but others and her daughter was up late cause of a nightmare so seems the badger didn't sleep either.

Xander walks down the steps, yep Gorefang will love this he gets two badgers today!

Udat glances at a grumbling Gorefang...and just chuckles as another badger ventures into the Hall. "Mmm...right, well, I suppose I might be here for at least a little while, I can always...check in on the Infirmary and see if anything's needed." He caps his flask, tucking it away deftly. "Never one to mind a bit of work."

Gorefang nods uncomfortable in return and just makes it to a seat before there's another badger in the room. His whiskers twitch and his one eye squints as he resists the urge to immediately leave again. Focus on something else! That's his solution. His squint turns on the newt "Wha's a newt need with healers anyway? Aren't they suppose t'just grow back or somethin'?"

Krisha blinks, ok..that's something new"Wot..."She sighs and stands slowly"I need to check on the dibbuns..."Or maybe stress, lack of good sleep and skipping a meal here and there this week will finally decide to take it's toll on her and she will faint briefly.

Xander frowns, lucky he is quick on his foot paws and is able to get to her side and catch her before she will hit the floor or whatever else "Krisha!" Ok now he has another thing to worry on.

Udat gives Krisha a polite nod. "Do be well. You look like you could use some rest. If you'd like, I could make something for you? A lavender tea, perhaps?" He offers a smile before he watches her struggle on her feet. Standing, he makes his way over to look things over a bit. "Probably exhaustion..."

Gorefang flinches as the maid faints but thankfully the other badger catches her. The stoat gets up to see what's going on but keeps a cautious distance "T'be clear, I didn't do anythin'" He points at the newt's explanation "Wha' 'e said...she need somethin'? Water maybe?"

Krisha groans a little, she was only passed out a couple moments and frowns "Wot...happen...Xander?" She looks up at him and frowns, she feels horrible right now, rest likely be good.

Xander frowns,he narrows his eyes slightly at the two beasts in the room and helps her to a chair, he studies them "Water...just water"He says as he looks at Krisha and frowns."You..fainted...you need to rest."Think fast..good or bad idea though?" I'll..I'll watch the dibbuns a couple days?"

Udat ignores narrowed eyes, he's used to them. "Water will help in the short term, yes..." He thinks. "A good relaxant, a tea, something to help with sleep, though, is ideal." He rummages about in his pouches before pulling out a vial. "Lavender oil. Smell it if you don't believe me, but...a drop on a pillow at night will help with peaceful sleep." He offers it to Krisha. "Excellent if you're...troubled at nights."

Gorefang doesn't worry about the narrowed eyes either, he just automatically assumes if something bad happens there's a fair change they'll blame the vermin. He heads for the kitchen "Righ', water...Y'need anythin' f'tea?" he asks the newt, waiting just long enough for an answer before he disappears in the door.

Krisha frowns "You?" She speaks to Xander but then nods and looks at the newt and Gorefang as she speaks "They...are ok dear..."She sounds tried, and looks to Xander again, him with the dibbuns? Ok..well it should be ok a couple days, should be fine and he can always ask for extra help.

Xander nods "Dibbuns..sort of like me" He glaces at the two again, a little unsure but he is protective still, he reaches for the lavender though and does take a small sniff, yeah it's lavender, he has seemed it before in the meadow. He sits by Krisha for now "I can help you to your room, let you rest a day...maybe two."

"I would recommend sleep as long as possible. You'll probably feel sluggish and tired until your body's ready to get back into it. Don't push it... I've seen fatigue topple armies." The newt glances towards Gorefang. "Hot water, though, if they have a light tea, chamomile, with honey and lemon, it should be pleasantly soothing."

Gorefang nods once at the newt and disappears in to the the kitchen. It might take him a few minutes to find the tea things.

Krisha frowns but nods "I have had...little sleep, and a lot of stress..not ate too much this past..well week"She has ate yes but could of been better.

Udat gives a slow nod. "And I'm sure, if the infirmary heard you say that, they'd chide you for not taking care of yourself. You know, when I was an apprentice, I was told...to rest and take care of myself first. If I get too sick to move, then I can't take care of anyone and we're all worse off. You, it seems, have little young things to take care of. You can't do that if you're too exhausted to move."

Krisha frowns, she almost drifted off to sleep but is awake a bit more now "I..was needed...the dibbuns needed me and some others and my daughter, and classes to do, things to look up and tend too, help with this week and been hard to sleep anyways"

Udat mmmhms and sits herself down. "And, yes, so much to do... but imagine how worried the dibbuns would be if they watched you topple over from fatigue, hmm?" He reclaims his seat. "You need your rest. You're the Abbey... Badgermother was it? You're taking care of others now. They rely on you. Not caring for yoruself will only let them down."

Gorefang tries to be fast about it and returns quickly with a tray "I got water, honey an' chamomile but I ain't seein' lemons" He's got a little pot he sticks on the fire to boil some water in too.

Krisha looks over at Gorefang, she nods to the newt "Yes...Badgermother, I am Krisha...Mother Krisha"

Udat sets to making tea for the Badgermother. "Not having lemon is fine...it's merely something to bring out flavor is all," He offers to Gorefang. "Chamomile...a hint of honey, and the secret," He pulls out a small vial and smells it lightly. "Mmm, an underlying hint of valerian root." He adds a few of the dried root and leaves it to steep, passing it to Krisha. "Udat. Apothecary and vagrant for the time being. Well met." He pulls the tea strainer out and passes the drink to the badger. "Sip lightly...it will help you rest."

Gorefang offers the cold water to the badger while the newt is making the tea "Gorefang" he provides as his introduction while watching the newt with a little interest. "Y'been Badgermother f'wha', a week? An' y're collapsin' already?"
Krisha frowns, she allowed help up to the infirm and ended up falling asleep fairly quickly.

==The next day around dinner=

Krisha had rested, sort of forced to it seems by the healers and what ever was in that tea and did she smell lavender? She was not sure but she did get a good 10 hours of sleep, woke briefly for like an hour and then sleep for another few hours before waking again to looks around, a slight frown."Why...here?" Ok think, oh yeah you fainted a few moments and then was helped up here and must of gave in to tiredness.

Benar sits nearby and offers some mint tea "I am not sure if you like mint tea or not Mother Krisha, it's good. How are you feeling?"

Krisha frown, great the abbot knows as she sighs"I...sort of..like it" She sits up and takes the mug drinking a little "Kind of like that...think Brother Gorvenalus called it..coffee."She frowns "You....heard and..."

Benar has his own tea as he drinks it and nods, a small smile at the mention of coffee "He is likely glad, few like that ..coffee yes that's what it is called, I rather have tea and yes you fainted..Krisha you need to make sure your taking care of yourself, now specifically being the Badgermother..do you want to talk, you know I am always here for anyone and I know this has been a...very trying week ..two week, for everyone here."

Krisha nods "I...know and I got some to leave you alone, did my best to talk to them...calm some"She frowns"The dibbuns still don't fully under...some of them don't anyways, some seem to and they cry, but I been there and there for Sister Ginny and some of the novices and even a couple order beasts, and there is Xander who..who has needed me and Northstar"

Benar sips his tea and listens, "I am glad you have helped some beasts, but what about yourself?"He lays a paw on her paw and looks at her concerned" have you let anyone help you?"

Krisha nods "Sister Ginny...when she could and Brother Rick and, not sure it was best idea..Xander is helping some now with the dibbuns"

Benar smiles "I did not mean helping to watch the dibbuns and I am glad you have help and someone familiar to them like Sister Ginny, I meant...with this loss, helping you to know we are here for you, to get through this sad time"

Krisha frowns as she looks down, fighting back tears "I..I am fine. I have to be ..strong like you..t..there for others...be not just a mother to the dibbuns but others as well, and so..so many l..loved Oz...he was there for..for so many even when he wasn't feeling well..even the..da..day he.."A deep breath, exhale"He..passed out in the orchards...was just gonna get a little shade....he said.."

Benar smiles sadly and nods "Yes he was there for a lot, a lot will miss him and some even more than others and Krisha..I have mourned Oz's death, alone in my room , in the rose garden...one time when I was about to break down Matilda took me into her cottage, I almost broke down at the funeral. Showing sorrow doesn't mean your weak, it doesn't mean your not strong. It means you cared so so much...its ok to cry, its ok to morn the passing of one that was a friend, family and I know you were one that cared about Oz a lot and he cared about you as well. Thought of you as a daughter he told me once, he knew his passing would be very hard on you and told me to make sure you would be ok, to be there for you but you have to let me be there for you and you have not let anyone be there for you, you have been there for me..for others and I thank you for that..I thank you a lot and marten and Oz's choice of you being BadgerMother when he passed was wise and your gonna do well...I know you will, you have a big heart and i

it shows..now please let someone be there.....for you"

Krisha listens and fights back tears again "I...I,,,"She is still a little tried but most of what she feels is stress and she has keep her emotions in, she has held back crying only letting it slip though a couple times and stopping after a minute or two, not crying in front of others, she has avoided a break down...."I..I want Oz..why did he have to die? WHY!" She takes a couple calming breaths "I'm..s..sorry for my outburst....I just...miss him...I want him back and I know..know he wont come back, he can't..and he's gone and he is n..never coming back and he will never be in his chair right before dinner drinking mint tea and he wont...won't...I wont hear his voice again..what if I forget it or what he..what he looks like one day..."

Benar frowns feeling some tears of his own fall, he just opens his arms to her and waits as he will let her decide on a hug or not. He speaks softly finally "It's ok Krisha..it's ok to be angry, its ok to ask why....we all must grief"

Krisha shakes her head and then just leans into the hug and lets the floodgates open finally and just has those whole body shaking sobs, likely soaking the abbot's robes some in a couple places. She has held in depression, worry and just built up stress and finally sets it free

Benar lets her cry and pats her on the back, "Cry Krisha, let it out."

Krisha does cry, heart wreaking sobs and after maybe half an hour she calms finally as she sniffs "I miss Oz..Miss him so bad..I...I was not ready, wasn't...ready when he died and I thought i would be"

Benar sighs, he has cried some as well some silent tears, he had his moments of sobbing in his room, he speaks"Who is ever ready for death? No one is Krisha...no one is"

Krisha sniffs and finally leans back, the fur under her eyes wet "What...what if I mess up at being Badgermother....what if I cant be like he was? I don't want to fail him or you or anyone and it seems I already messed things up..I ..I am so sorry Abbot Benar"

Benar pats her paw and gives her a gentle hug "You have messed nothing up..Mother Krisha and you don't have to be like Papa Oz, you need to be you...you need to be Mother Krisha as that's whom you are..you and Oz both have things in common..a big careing heart, wanting to be there for others and a love of dibbuns and you have some things Oz did not as well, do not try and be Oz..be yourself and by doing that your be fine. And no one is perfect by the way Mother Krisha and beasts are allowed to make mistakes..even I have made mistakes in my life. I was not the perfect Abbot when I first got the job..I did not feel ready when Lormis died...but I have done well and your do well as BadgerMother. Just do not be afraid to ask for help, to if needed cry a little, no one gets over lost quickly..I still miss Lorimis, still think of him and your still think of Oz..even seasons from now."

Krisha sniffs and wipes away some tears, she gently hugs the abbot "Thank you...Benar..maybe I should go check on the dibbuns"

Benar shakes his head "No....I want to make sure our BadgerMother is ok. 2...no 3 days in the infirm, Friar Lacota will make sure you get some good healthy meals, the healers will make sure you rest..you are to rest, relax..stay in the bed. The dibbuns will be fine for 3 days with Sister Ginny and some helpers,I can keep you updated and others will keep me updated on you. Please Krisha."

Krisha nods "Alright."She says softly as she does lay down to relax , the bed is soft after all."I will rest."

Benar smiles "Thank you Krisha. Now if you need me you can send for me and I will come, now get some rest I will have the friar bring you something up"

Krisha nods as she sighs, well rest would be good and she lets sleep over take her again, when she wakes she can eat and drink something.