IC Redwall RP January 30th, 2021

BlisaMarshmellow · 2021-02-18 08:38:56 PM

I do apologize for taking so long to post this log

LOG:
Krisha would not wake up and when she did she was weak and tried and just muttered. She did have water and a little broth, they let her stay in her rooom, quietier and she seemed more comfortable.

DoraRose has heard about how the badger is doing, and she has decided to visit her and talk, one widow to another. The mouse quietly enters and sits on a chair, a book in her paws. She peers at her friend, trying to determine if she's awake or not.

Krisha is awake but sort of just laying there, she does glace over when Dorarose enters but says nothing to her, just a frown and the badger has rarely left the room. The badger has skiped meals too.

DoraRose smiles when she sees her friend is awake. "Hey. I heard how you're doing, and I get it. I wanted to hide in my room and never come out or do anything ever again when my Leon died. I'm sorry this has happened." She moves to sit on the edge of the bed, unless the badger doesn't let her.

Krisha makes no move to stop her, she just sighs alightly." I....I should of told him to not help her,let someone else ....then maybe it would of been worse, I..Idon't know." Her voice is tried sounding."Maybe not...supposed to be happy"

DoraRose bows her head and thinks for a few minutes. "I don't think Xander would want you punishing yourself for all of the What Ifs," she finally says, slowly, gently. "You had no way of knowing. Just as I had no way of knowing that the day my husband saw our son off on his trip would be the day he was kidnapped. We can't know these things, and I don't think our husbands would want us punishing ourselves for things we can not control. They made their choices, and so did our enemies. There is nothing we can do about it now."

Krisha frowns and feels tears, " BUt...why, Xander was a novice, he was gonna be a brother in the order, he..." She shakes her head " I miss him, I wonder where Oz is...he dead too? I even left thinking Xander just wants to skip novice duties,not that he..died and not even that morning, he died ealier..did he fight back or was he just...."

DoraRose goes to rest a paw on the badger's shoulder. "Leon was a Brother of the Order, Master Healer of all Redwall. Nobeast can explain the thoughts of such evil creatures who would harm those who only wish to live at peace. But I can assure you that, just like my Leon, Xander fought back. I am fully confident that it was he who killed those ferrets that were in the clearing." She sighs. "I wish I knew where Oz is. But I think John is out there, looking for him. And I doubt he will stop until he has your baby back to you, and the murderer 6 feet underground."

Krisha tenses up a little, " But where, was it that cat for sure or someone else. She mentioned a friend, course...she could of just lied."

DoraRose sighs heavily. "I don't know. I wish I did. I truly do. But I am confident that John will find out. We have to trust, and hope, and have faith. Even....even though it seems stupid and crazy." She thinks for a moment. "Blisa did send us a drawing of a suspicious cat that stopped by Ferravale. She said she had given John a copy, as well. So if he is involved, John knows what to look for."

Krisha shrugs, " Maybe...another cat? Mate maybe..." She frowns at this and shakes her head." Guess whoever is, likely gone and if not, maybe they can be questioned"

DoraRose nods. "Aye, and we can trust John to do that." She tries to get the badger to look at her. "But you're not going to do Oz any good wasting away like this. I was with Leon when he died, and he made me promise him to not do what you're doing now. I know that Xander would have done the same with you had he been given the chance."

Krisha feels the tears, she don't wipe them away, " I...I feel if I..saw him die been worse than finding him dead..I..miss him so much.
I..can't....I...need left alone."

DoraRose shakes her head stubbornly. "No, you don't, Krisha. You need to be surrounded by beasts who love you. You need community. It hurts, but you need to talk to others, to those who care and who miss Xander, too. Trust me, I know. Being alone after you lose someone your life seemed to revolve around does nothing but destroy you on the inside."

Krisha finally looks at the mouse, " I feel like I am broken in a millon pieces." She lets out a sob and coughs a little bit.

DoraRose softens. "Aye, as is to be expected. You've lost something that was practically part of you. It's normal, and 'tis well that you should grieve. But you shouldn't let your sorrow drown you. Xander wouldn't want that. Ferro wouldn't want that. Your departed Dibbuns and sweet Oz -- who I'm sure is still alive -- wouldn't want that. You have reasons to live, Krisha. And we, your friends, can help you put your heart back together again. We care about you. Please let us help you."

Krisha at first turns away as if she just wants to give up...she then starts sobbing and looks back to Dora, " Xander would...say live,your right. I..have to get back to..life."

DoraRose goes to give her a hug. She doesn't say anything, just allows her friend time to cry and think for a few minutes.

Krisha does cry and then speaks again. " I...should eat more....have some water or..juice"

DoraRose nods and stands. "I'll be right back." After a few minutes, she returns, carrying a tray of soup and juice and water. "Here. Nice vegetable soup. I don't know if you could stomach a roll, so I didn't get you one."

Krisha manages to sit up. She does eat the soup and drink the water and juice and is quite as she does so." I..admit not ate much...since Xanders death, didnt want to"

DoraRose nods, staring at the floor as she remembers. "I didn't want to, either, after Leon died. I think 'tis just the way grief is. I found it hard to not just collapse from the weight of my sorrow. Leon was wise to make me promise to live."

Krisha nods, she frowns," Pain like this,it...never really goes away, does it?" She frowns." How did..Oz deal with it, how do..you?"

DoraRose thinks. "No, it doesn't, not fully. But it does soften over time. Someday their memory will become sweet again, even though there will always be sorrow. What I do is I let myself feel. If I am sad, I'm sad. If I need to laugh at something Leon once said, I laugh. If I feel upset at something we argued about or how I wish he was still here, I let myself be upset. But I let everything flow through me, memories, feelings, everything. I talk about him with my family and friends. I remind our daughter about her father, what he was like, how much he loved her. I try to honour his memory with everything I do. I'm trying to get better at my healing skills because of him. It's still hard and sad. But I think he would be proud of me, and that makes it all better." A tear courses down her cheek.

Krisha nods " I...remember the day before..." She sniffs. " Xander made..dinner, well sort of and wanted to dance, I was worried he would maybe trip or fall but he didn't, a slow dance."

DoraRose wipes away her tears and smiles softly. "That is a wonderful last memory. He loved you so much. You were blessed to have each other."

Krisha manages a weak smile "Yeah...we were. I loved him too"

DoraRose looks up at the badger. "Now what? I could probably get Zork's old wheelchair and toodle you off somewhere. If you're going to get back to living, you need to not stay in your room."

Krisha tilts her head, " There is a badger sized..wheelchair?"

"Oh, aye....oh, you weren't here when Zork was alive, were you? He was Oz's brother, and he adopted Zinnia, Xander's mother." Dora pauses, like, wow, do I feel old. She waves a paw before continuing. "There was something wrong with his heart, so he was confined to a wheelchair. He rigged it out and made it pretty awesome, actually. It's still here...in the Abbey...somewhere..."

Krisha hmm" Odd...wait he was the Blacksmith wasnt he, also his name is in the bell tower." Least she is talking, she sits up better." I think..some time outside the room would do me well and then get better to walk around"

DoraRose nods and stands up. "I'll go ask somebeast to find it." She's out of the room for a little while, then returns. "A Brother Ray thinks he knows where it is. He'll get it for you." She sits and draws her knees up to her chin. "What are you thinking of doing first? You may need to talk to Squirrelbabe. I've been training her in the ways of the Warrior to give her something to do, but she wants to go off and find Oz herself."

Krisha frowns, " SHe needs to stay...here..sides" She is quite" She can cheer me up, I care bout all the dibbuns, they..." A small smile " ARe...my dibbuns, they need me and I..been in here too long "

DoraRose nods. "Maybe you can help me get Squirrelbabe to memorize the Abbey Charter. I believe that all beasts should know the Charter, even us Warriors who don't necessarily live by it. If we keep it in our minds and hearts, it can make us into better beasts overall." The mouse grimaces. "She's not a fan of that." Brother Ray's voice can be heard out in the hall. "I found Zork's old wheelchair, Dora." The Gatekeeper smiles, then goes out and gets the chair. "Well, are you ready?" She'll help the badger as best as she can.

Krisha nods and gets carefully into the chair, " Ok we can find Squirrelbabe and go...to..well maybe by the bell tower"

~*END*~

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